Having Trouble Locating My Serenity

This has been an awful week for me.  In multiple ways the realization that my summer of serenity is fast approaching its end has materialized.

It began with rain-lots and lots of rain that turned the peaceful waterfall into a loud rush-so loud in fact I had to close the window by my desk in order to hear a conversation on the phone.  Stress has set into my soul with the idea that come the end of Labor Day weekend I may be "homeless".

We still have no decision on any fronts for "permanent" employment either for me or my spouse, so now I have to decide what to do:

Option 1 - Send the pets to my spouse and find temporary shelter with my mother.
Option 2 - Rent an apartment near my extended family (mother, sister, son, etc) move my furniture from storage and pray that I actually find employment in that area within a few months time.

I know what you are wondering why isn't there an Option 3 - move in with my spouse but there is a wrinkle in that scenario since he must have a permanent location at least 100 miles from where he is currently "temporarily" residing.

I am mostly stressed about the employment issue and wondering what else I can do besides fundraising.  I have applied for sales jobs but am told I have no experience in spite of the fact that that is exactly what fundraising is - the art of selling.  I have resumes out there for jobs I would love but in today's world it is practically impossible to speak with a human being to follow up on a submittal.  What ever happened to human contact?  We do everything through email, text, cellphone, Skype, etc.  Today when I called a company where I had submitted a resume for a position I would absolutely love to pursue, I was put into a automatic response that said my resume was being looked at and some one would contact me if there was a match.  How do they even know who I am, the automatic response never even asked.

I am angry, upset and disappointed, I wanted this to be the summer of serenity and contentment which it was for most of June and July but now the serenity is waning as the waterfall continues to flow, so do my tears.

The sun has just come out perhaps things will look up in the days to come and my serenity will return, but like the changeable weather, the waterfall and life in general serenity must ebb and flow.  I believe yesterday and today it has ebbed.