Finding a new home genie

I have just spent 2 days and many hours looking at apartments and town homes in order to locate a new venue for my serenity.  I am beginning to think that this is an impossibility, the venue not the serenity.

The summer home by the waterfall that has restored my peace of mind and my serenity was literally a stroke of luck and being online and the right time and place.  Now I need it to happen again.

When we sold our home the idea was to "downsize" a little, but what I have seen over the past few days would be downsizing a lot and I wouldn't be able to sell my furniture before it is moved to a "new" home due to the fact it is in containers at a moving/storage facility.  So what now?

One option is to lower my expectations on what I want, but why should I do that?  Throughout the summer of my serenity I have learned several beneficial lessons, most importantly although it's important to care for others you need to put yourself first from time to time.  I think that this is one of those times.  16 years ago I found a house that I liked, I was patient and when it dropped in price as I knew it would, we bought it and it became that home that all of the kids friends wanted to come hang out in and now I would like to feel the same sense of comfort, but a little smaller and no having to use a snow blower - I want the management to take care of that, along with mowing.  I really don't think this is too much to ask.

For the time being I am not panicking nor am I homeless, yet, but I really would like a fairy godmother or a genie to grant me the wish of continuing my serenity in a location that will fit most of my belongings along with 2 cats, a husband and once in awhile my children (there both adults and living on their own).   If that's not possible then could somebody please send me a town home with a dining room large enough for a table that seats 8.

Having Trouble Locating My Serenity

This has been an awful week for me.  In multiple ways the realization that my summer of serenity is fast approaching its end has materialized.

It began with rain-lots and lots of rain that turned the peaceful waterfall into a loud rush-so loud in fact I had to close the window by my desk in order to hear a conversation on the phone.  Stress has set into my soul with the idea that come the end of Labor Day weekend I may be "homeless".

We still have no decision on any fronts for "permanent" employment either for me or my spouse, so now I have to decide what to do:

Option 1 - Send the pets to my spouse and find temporary shelter with my mother.
Option 2 - Rent an apartment near my extended family (mother, sister, son, etc) move my furniture from storage and pray that I actually find employment in that area within a few months time.

I know what you are wondering why isn't there an Option 3 - move in with my spouse but there is a wrinkle in that scenario since he must have a permanent location at least 100 miles from where he is currently "temporarily" residing.

I am mostly stressed about the employment issue and wondering what else I can do besides fundraising.  I have applied for sales jobs but am told I have no experience in spite of the fact that that is exactly what fundraising is - the art of selling.  I have resumes out there for jobs I would love but in today's world it is practically impossible to speak with a human being to follow up on a submittal.  What ever happened to human contact?  We do everything through email, text, cellphone, Skype, etc.  Today when I called a company where I had submitted a resume for a position I would absolutely love to pursue, I was put into a automatic response that said my resume was being looked at and some one would contact me if there was a match.  How do they even know who I am, the automatic response never even asked.

I am angry, upset and disappointed, I wanted this to be the summer of serenity and contentment which it was for most of June and July but now the serenity is waning as the waterfall continues to flow, so do my tears.

The sun has just come out perhaps things will look up in the days to come and my serenity will return, but like the changeable weather, the waterfall and life in general serenity must ebb and flow.  I believe yesterday and today it has ebbed.

Serenity could be slowly wanning

Well the month I most dreaded is upon us - August.  I didn't want August to come because it means that my time surrounded by serenity will so come to an end.  It is now my goal to instill ways to maintain the inner serenity that I have located residing here.

I have taken scads of pictures and I will be taking video as well to record the sounds of the waterfalls to help lull me to sleep when I relocate to city or suburbia.

This place has been a gift to my soul and my inner peace.  Everyone who has visited me has commented on how you cannot help but be relaxed while you are here.

If you have any suggestions on how to maintain this serenity when I relocate I would love to hear from you.  Tell me now while I still have 3 weeks left to enjoy, to relax and to be serene.

I should say though that August although trumpets the end of summer is also the month of my mother's birthday.  She will be a very young 82 - HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM!